I'm on a freaking rollercoaster in here.
Part of me is freaked out in a good way because one of my projects is breaking some milestones tonight. Part of me is freaked out in a bad way because that part of me realizes how fragile it all is.
And there's the part of me just so anxious to see if this project can hit this much more meaningful milestone (ooh, so close).
So I'm ecstatic (so many milestones), unsatisfied (not quite the big milestone), and terrified (it could all go away in a heartbeat). All at once.